The Happiest Day of My Life
( Polo )

The happiest day of my life, hasn't happened yet, but I can imagine what it will be like. After that day, the whole world will be different to me becuase I will be able to do things that I haven't been able to for four years.

I have M.E. which is an illness you have probably never heard of. You can get this really seriously, or not so bad. Basically it makes you tired, and means I have bounderies I can't cross. If I cross these I could be layed out on my sofa for up to a week.

It also makes me iller than normal people, when I get a bug. Say I get a cold, or flu that everyone gets over in about three days, I could have those symtoms for a month.

When I get tired, I don't just want to sleep, I only need to sleep when it's so bad. I get leg, head and tummy aches, I get dizzy, sleepy and I feel sick. Feeling sick is what I get most. There was one time when for about three weeks, I felt sick every time I went to bed. [It's still going on now].

It means I get worried too, about the stupidest things like school, but I get worried because everything is too much for me to cope with. When I feel like this, I just want to be left alone.

I have loads of time off school. Some of you may think this is paradise, but I have to catch up with the work, and everyone asks me where I have been. It's not easy to tell someone you have M.E. All my closest friends know, it's just the one's I'm not to close to.

We have to have meetings with the school and the nurse, and I have to see the Docter loads!

Some people have it really bad, where they get tired eating their breakfast, and I just feel I am lucky to not have it like that.

I can't do PE or sports and I can't muck about with my friends as much as I would like to, but they understand. (Well, some of them!)

The happiest day of my life, will be when I get rid of it and I will! I can't die from it (thank Goodness) and I will get over it. I nearly had, but then I started my new school and got a relapse.

Don't feel sorry for me, I am happy becuase it's become my life, and I am used to it and I don't mind. There are times when I think it has screwed my life up, but then I think of everyone who has illness' they could die from and I feel sorry for them.

I can do things the same as other people, and do well at hiding away from my M.E and pretending to other people I am Okay. I can hang around with my friends and I can have fun, but I have to know when it's time to stop.

I'm not writing this to get sympathy, I'm writing this so you understand. Next time you're out playing with your friends, think how lucky you are that you can play a lot, and not be off school for the next week.

Thank you for reading this, and I hope you understand.

The End